Thursday, October 17, 2013

The In Between

....that's where I feel I am.  Not quite where I am suppose to be, but not still where I once was.  Ever feel like that?

My life is moving along fine, maybe it's that the kids are getting older and I can see a glimpse of what it will be like around here once they are all off living their own lives in college or university, or living abroad.  I think I'm trying to find myself still.  In my professional life (or lack thereof to be more accurate), in my home life, as a wife, and a mom, as a scrapper, and friend.  I just feel I have so much more to give, but don't know quite what it is.

So I wait.  I wait on the One who has promised to give me a hope and a future.  I wait on the One who says I am fearfully, and wonderfully made (Ps 139:14).  I wait for His still small voice in me to rise up out of the noise and distraction, and self doubt to lead me in the way I ought to go (1Kings 19:12). And in the meantime I do what I have been called to do at this point in time.  I will fulfill my duties here in the home, on my design teams, in my church, in my Dance class, in the school as I supervise over the lunch hour.  I will do it all to the best of my I wait for what's next.

It's been awhile since I've pulled back the veil of "me", not because I was hiding anything but simply because there really wasn't much to reveal.  These days there's just an unsettled feeling that I'm dealing with, and I want to be honest and forthright with you as I share not only my scrappy adventures, but also a bit of the person behind the pretty paper and stickers.  I never want to be one dimensional in this space.  I never want to make it seem as though my life is all roses and lollipops. Life just doesn't work like that for anyone.  I want us to be able to identify with one another.  So this is it folks real life, uncensored.  

I do have some pretty paper and stickers to share with you today.  It's not all gloom and doom.  These photos were from a week that was a little less "in between" and a whole lot more grateful for the 'here and now'.  The last week of summer was a fun filled one around here.
 We were hosted by my friend and her girls at their cottage for what I believe were the two most beautiful days of the summer.  Lots of sunshine, boat rides, knee boarding, trampoline jumping, and all around soaking up summer happened during this last week.

I finished of the 100 Days of Summer paper pack by Simple Stories with these two pages.  Such a great collection.

Thanks for sticking with me through this one friends.  Hope all is well in your world, and that you are living with a sense of gratitude for the day.
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Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

I feel ya ... once they are on their own, it's going to be a whole new chapter ...

I loveeee your pages! LOVING the colors and the photos!!!!

Juliana Michaels 17turtles said...

I think we all have those days and moments of wonder and questioning! It sounds like you've got the foundation you need to get through anything though!
Lovin' your layout! Inspiring me as always!!!

Anonymous said...

Big love and hugs my friend. This is just one of those weird life moments, I had one not too long ago. You'll come out of it clearer than ever.

Love your spread!

Danielle said...

You are not alone with these feelings, I think we all have them every now and then. Hold on to the fact that there will be better times! Sending you a big hug xoxo

antenucci said...

Totally get the in between! I think we/I am stuck there too, so just saying hi and that you'll make it! :) Take care.

vimmi said...

I just found your blog through Scraptastic. Love your creations, they will provide so much inspiration.

But your words made me comment. There are so many days I feel like I am not doing what I am supposed to. I also look for that purpose in life and sometimes see a glimpse of it, and then its gone. So like the others said, you are not alone. But
you are fulfilling so much every day with your family, and don't forget about people like us, who read your blog and get inspired every day.